Saturday, May 31, 2025

Creativity, energy and pain

      There was no posting for awhile. I wanted to, was sewing, quilting, but could not get the energy to do it and fight with my computer glitches. It was like moving through molasses or quicksand. Today, I read a blog by the Zen Chic woman, Brigitte Heitland, and it all clicked! I knew just what she said. She wrote:

"Creativity needs energy.
And energy needs rest.

Sometimes, rest comes wrapped in sunshine.
Sometimes, in a thermometer and a hot water bottle.
Inner Shift – From Doing to Feeling
In that silence, one thing became very clear:
Creating from the heart matters more than ticking boxes with the brain. "
 
It was pain that was draining all my energy. I was just mechanical and not able to think or create words or ideas.  I have been dealing with pain that prevents me from just doing simple stuff. I have to psych myself up to just walk up or down the stairs or across the room. It is upsetting to not be able to walk freely, move freely and stand without pain. I have no particular illness, just joint pain, muscle pain and rolling fatigue. I turned 71 in March, maybe it is part of it. I eat low carb, no processed foods, cook at home and take vitamins. If I read anymore articles, I will go insane trying to figure it out. I work out at cardiac rehab 3 times a week for 2 hours and do not sit and watch TV. The doctors are no help unless I want to take a plethora of meds and shots. Been that route for 21 years with migraines, until TMJ help solved it, not doing it now. No more whining. I know why I could not post or create anything other than mechanical sewing. No energy- Pain took it all.
I miss being part of the blogsphere and want to continue on. One step at a time. I continue to finish quilts. I am quilting, but oh so slow on the longarm. I can't stand for a long time, lots of breaks. Here is "Oh My Stars", a swap I did long ago, but now it is quilted on the bed in the guest room where it looks lovely.
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10 comments:

  1. Have you been tested for Lyme disease? Just a thought that you might to be if you haven’t been tested.

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  2. So sorry you are struggling. I hope you can find some answers soon. I am being treated for anemia and have found my pain levels dropping (as well as not being so cold all the time) as my iron levels have rebounded. The quilt is beautiful.

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  3. Pain does kill the everyday joy that we all want.
    I like the double star pattern in all of the pretty colors.

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  4. I would echo the recommendation to get tested for lyme disease and its cousin anaplasmosis which is another tick-borne disease. Your symptoms sound like that might be the culprit. The finished quilt is bright and beautiful, cheerful, which is sorely needed with the gloomy wet May we've just endured.

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  5. Dearest Linda. I am so sorry to hear about all you are going through. I live with pain every day so I know what you mean. Some days are worse than others and it is very hard to even function. I will pray for you and hope you will find some relief so that you can do the things you love. Your quilt is absolutely gorgeous! Well done my friend.

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  6. Linda, so very sorry to hear of your struggles! Pain is totally draining and as you say takes every ounce of energy to just move or think. We have missed you and your blog posts and look forward to your posts when you are able to write them no matter how infrequently. Star finish!s within stars - beautiful quilt. Thank you so much for sharing the words from Brigitte Heitland - as I m not in the best place right now her words are perfect and so appropriate.

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  7. What an excellent post (and thanks for the link off to Brigitte's blog). I am glad you are finding your way back - we've all been there at some point but her words are some of the best I've read to describe the feelings.

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  8. Aww Mann!! I feel you on the reading and researching - so Poof! I am sending you magic dust! I sure hope you can find some pain relief . That just sucks. I do love this quilt tho - and I like that you are trying to figure out how to make everything work. Hugs my friend!!

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  9. Oh, Linda. I hope you are feeling better. I love the quotation from Brigitte's blog.

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  10. I'm so sorry that you aren't feeling well. I hope you can figure out the cause soon. I think we talked about this before and you said it wasn't Lyme, but your symptoms are so much like a friend of mine!

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